Five Finger Death Punch singer Ivan Moody told Revolver magazine that his serious drinking problem almost got him kicked out of the band.
"When I sang, I was a totally functional alcoholic," Moody said. "I could do my job. But then half of the tour for American Capitalist, I couldn't even tell I had been onstage. I would literally wake up the next day and say, 'Where the hell are we? What did we do last night?' And someone would go, 'Well, we played a show in front of 20,000 people.' And I'd go, 'F---, I wish I remembered.'"
Moody's bandmates nearly replaced him with another singer.
"We never actually punched each other," guitarist Zoltan Bathory told Revolver. "We'd shout at each other and go toe to toe like we were going to throw down. I would draw a line in the dirt in the parking lot and say, 'Dude, step over that line and I'll take you out and we're going to f---ing go.' It came to that point many, many times, but I always knew that there's no way I would ever let him go. Deep down, he knew I would never leave him behind and I knew he would never run away and not come back. We're a band. We had some rough times, but real bands work through that stuff."
Moody said the drinking problem began with family problems, then snowballed from there.
"While I was drinking myself into oblivion, I lost all contact with my three kids and my family," Moody said, "God, I can't believe I'm telling you this. I got to a point where I wouldn't wake up in the day at all. I'd just sleep through it and then wake up and go to the bar and then go back to bed. I had just gotten divorced, so I was going through women like water and it just turned into a pattern. I felt gross. I felt like a junkie. My own band members wouldn't return my calls and I lost multiple tour managers, crew members. I can't tell you how many friends stopped talking to me. It's really sad sometimes that you have to go to that extreme bottom to find your way back up, but it's true."
Moody decided to get sober after a conversation with Korn singer Jonathan Davis, who struggled with drugs and alcohol.
"I went on his bus and he sat there," Moody said. "He lit me a cigarette and he looked me in the eyes and said, 'First things first, dude. You need to get off the juice. You've got the most talented band and you're a great performer, but you're f---ing up and I've been there.' What he was saying was so potent because he was someone I had looked up to my entire life. I was crying when I walked off the bus. It hurt me because I knew he was right."